This is the third episode for DMVDaily’s Mental Health series with Investigative Journalist Gabrielle Alexandra Smith. We discuss Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and the reality of it from Smith. This episode would allow a reader to understand how PTSD can dramtically affect someone’s lifestyle.
DMVDaily: Welcome to the third installation to our series. When did you first notice you had PTSD?
Gabrielle: May 2021, a few months ago.
DMVDaily: When did you notice the signs?
Gabrielle: After leaving entertaiment, I went over my grandfather’s housein Marrietta, Georgia. I do not like being stalked or followed without my knowledge. Even with my knowledge I do not like it. It makes me feel uncomfortable. My aunt and uncle had cameras in my grandfather’s. It made me feel uncomfortable. At the time, I did not connect the dots.
I would have panic attacks majority of the day. I was definitely in the dissociative stage. I was disconnected from reality. I was mentally in two realities.
One being entertainment doing interviews. Two being trying to become accustomed to my old reality, which is kind of a new reality in itself.
DMVDaily: How is it a new reality of you were returning to your old life?
Gabrielle: It is new because of my mind frame. A new mind frame is a new reality. A lot of people did not see it like this. They saw it as my same mentality and going back to the same life. This is not true. Once you had a new experience and mentally consume new information this creates a new reality. It is ignorant for a person to think a person goes through experiences that are bad or good, and they are the same person or their mind works in the same way.
This is a major problems with society. We are humans try to talk to them like they are still have that mentally. It is impossible unless you are a miminlist or sitting home doing nothing. Once you step outside the front door you enter the mental processess of a new experience that will reformulate your membrane, your mind. So, how can you be the same?
DMVDaily: We get it. This information will go over a lot of people’s head. You make sense. This is a problem with the world. This is why it is so dysfunctional and disorganized. Because like you are saying, people talk to you like they used to when life experiences have went on. Your intellectual knowledge is on a very high level.
Gabrielle: Thanks. Another sign, I noticed was forgetting a lot and a lot of having flashbacks to the moment when I was stalked and mentally messed with. These were very vivid flashbacks.
DMVDaily: Do you still have flashbacks?
Gabrielle: Here and there.
DMVDaily: What do you mean you forget a lot?
Gabrielle: During the mental transition to realities and such, I emotionally or psychological damaged my temporal and front lobe that most. I say emotionally because inside my brain there was no chipped piece or severe head on damage. When taking CT Scans it was normal. Metntally, I knew I was not the same. Everyone knows their body. The functions that I lacked are the functions of the front and temporal lobe. The temporal lobe is about encoding memory and along with auditory responses. If I am forgetting, then than there are issues with my temporal lobe. It is very simple.
DMVDaily: This makes sense.
Gabrielle: My long term memory was more intact than my short term memory. I lacked things in the working memory.
DMVDaily: Okay, you just taught a biology course. How are you coping with your PTSD?
Gabrielle: Understanding my triggers. Trying my best to stay away from people or situations that trigger me. Sometimes it is out of my control, I do try my best to avoid things.
DMVDaily: People need to tell people about their mental health, especially PTSD.
Gabrielle: A lot of people stay a silent even when they are in situations and around people who tend to trigger them. This is not healthy and it is dangerous.
DMVDaily: Yes it is. I know we are talking about PTSD, however, this is also the same for other mental illnesses like bipolar, depression and the others.
Gabrielle: Knowing about it is how you become more aware and allow people to understand. If you do not tell someone, then they are talking to you as if you do not have triggers relating to PTSD. This starts and formulates a new miscommunication. This world has so many miscommunication signals going on.
DMVDaily: Yes, a group of people thinking one thing and the next group of people thinking another thing.
Gabrielle: The next episode be a continuation about PTSD. We have to touch on war and reverse culture shock, and etc. It close out this episode, anyone with PTSD or any other coping issues with mental health should talk about their problems, but not to a person who is always going through trauma.